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Heyloo! The purpose for this journal is to focus on weight-loss through my one true love, writing. I believe that outer appearances permeate the skin and affect our inner selves. I want to get back to myself through the support of others in the same predicament and through my own dedication to life.

I have been a model throughout my life. Recently, however, I gained a great amount of weight. Now, mind you, reader, I have never cared about looks. I only modeled because I was photogenic and just so happened to be the right measurements for clothes. I was known for the amount of food I consumed on a regular basis. I am no anorexic, "I-just-want-to-slap-you" fashionista; I am no stick figure. I am normal. Well, I was.

Then, I began to have problems with my thyroid gland. I hit puberty very late in life and I think that my body kind of went berserk. One day, I looked at myself in the mirror and thought, "Hey, are you getting fat?" I am a perfectionist and obsessive compulsive; I will drive myself to insanity to attain an unattainable level of perfection. I hear there are pills for this. I have also always been very, very self-concious. These two combined traits made me very aware of my body. It should be noted that I had a good body at this time; it just was not the "Abs of Steel" body that I previously had. I was about 125 lbs. before I began starving myself. By the end of three months of extreme starvation and cross-country training, I was 92 lbs.

I am 5'3".

But, as is the case with nature, every extreme has an equal and opposite extreme. I went through a very difficult time last summer and managed to gain all of the weight back; in fact, I was much heavier than I was previously. I always laugh at myself for thinking that I was fat at 120 lbs. Talk about psychotic, eh? Now, I am trying to get my life back in order by June and to get down to somewhere in the range of 110 - 120 lbs., which is a normal and healthy range. My "dream," though such a word is a bit melodramatic if you ask me, is to be realized by that summer month.

Also, please note that I don't think I am terribly overweight. I am no complainer. This blog is about reaching goals and not about looking good.

As of March 18, 2007, I am 148 lbs. My goal is to be 138 lbs. by April 18, 2007.

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Below I have listed a few of my favorite things. They provide me with inspiration and help to tell you a little bit about who I am.

Music: Jeff Buckley, John Mayer, Vaughan Williams, Squirrel Nut Zippers, Trans-Siberian Orchestra, Josh Groban, The Shins, Il Divo, Oasis, Frank Sinatra, Sixpence None the Richer, Scissor Sisters, Frederic Chopin, Gavin DeGraw, Gioacchino Rossini, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, DoF, Norah Jones, Radiohead, Edith Piaf, Beatles, Alanis Morissette, Keane, Vienna Teng, Maroon 5, Sarah Brightman, The Killers, Alicia Keys, Simon and Garfunkel, Jonathan Larson, Goo Goo Dolls, Andrew Lloyd Webber, Corinne Bailey Rae, The Fray, Jacques Brel, Pytor Ilyich Tchaikovsky, Regina Spektor, Clay Aiken, Ben Harper, The Dandy Warhols, Keren Ann, They Might Be Giants, Howie Day, The Dave Matthews Band, Balanescu Quartet, and The Police

Movies: Casablanca, Time After Time, Amadeus, The Shawshank Redemption, Sabrina, The Adventure of the Sierra Madre, Rebecca, V for Vendetta, The Illusionist, Somewhere in Time, The Legend of Bagger Vance, Guys and Dolls, Rear Window, A Beautiful Mind, Remember the Titans, The Great Mouse Detective, Notting Hill, Prime, The Phantom of the Opera, Proof, Pride and Prejudice, The Sound of Music, You've Got Mail, Gone With the Wind, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Dear Frankie, RENT, My Fair Lady, Tristan and Isolde, The Private Life of Sherlock Holmes, The Prestige, Breakfast at Tiffany's, and To Kill A Mockingbird

Television: The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, What Not to Wear, The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes, Whose Line is it Anyway?, Monty Python's Flying Circus, Spongebob Squarepants, House M.D., Seinfeld, Miami Ink, and 24

Books: The Bible, Phantom, Of Mice and Men, Flowers for Algernon, The Sherlock Holmes Canon, The Eyre Affair, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, The Game is Afoot, Twelth Night, The Giver, The Beekeeper's Apprentice, Murder on the Orient Express, The Catcher in the Rye, O Jerusalem, The Phantom of the Opera, The Time Traveler's Wife, A Monstrous Regiment of Women, The Picture of Dorian Gray, and To Kill a Mockingbird

Quotes: "Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great." (Comte DeBussy-Rabutin),

"When words become unclear, I shall focus with photographs. When images become inadequate, I shall be content with silence." (Ansel Adams)

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep." (Robert Frost, Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening)

"Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes; but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I've got a few missing. It's okay, though, because I've got some more vibrant colors, like periwinkle, at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem, though, in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean, there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation. So when I meet someone who's an 8-color type, I'm like, "Hey girl, magenta!" and she's like, "Oh, you mean purple!" and she goes off on her purple thing… and I'm like, "No - I want magenta!"" (John Mayer)

"When you have eliminated all which is impossible, then whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth." (Sherlock Holmes, A Study in Scarlet)

"A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world." (Oscar Wilde, The Critic as Artist)

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